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I really don't like it when cartoons bleed. Not like realistic cartoons, like stick figures and stuff. I don't know why, gore and violence and stuff like that doesn't bother me, but I hate it when people draw little stick figure flip books or animation or whatever and their like bleeding or being chopped up, it just freaks me out. Something to do with innocence and children and drawings and blood and guts, give me the creeps.
I really hate big cities. I feel like Dallas is an exception just because it doesn't feel that big to me and I live in a relatively bubble-like suburb. I've been to San Fransisco, I've been to LA, I've been to New York and Boston, I don't like it. I don't like big cities. New York and Boston were frickin cold and the air in California smells weird. My friend said it's cause it's cleaner, I don't believe her. People are rude in big cities, I truly believe Texas is the friendliest state. Not to mention cities are dirty, like sick dirty. New York was one of the dirtiest places I have ever been, I was really scared to touch ANYTHING and I'm not normally one of those people. I just like the country better. And not like country-country, I just like the idea of wide open spaces. I love trees and grass and nature in general. If I could I would own a ranch and just live off the land like that. I like the idea of farming, manual labor always suited me better. I believe in evolution that way. Some people were meant to work hard and be able to work hard, like some women are born to bear children. That leads to my next thing I hate:
Skinny people. Not like metabolism skinny, that's your genes and that's natural, but people who try to fight nature and try to be so damn skinny that they constantly fuss over food and exercise. Guess what, you will gain weight, you will have cellulite, you will have big hips and thighs and saggy boobs, it's called gravity. I would much rather have a little something to keep me warm then be able to see my ribs, not that important to me. If we were still cavemen, those skinny bitches would be dead. No one had anorexia in prehistoric ages, you know why? cause people were dieing left and right because they were starving. If people want to kill themselves slowing then let them. Whether it be cigarettes or drugs or eating disorders or whatever. If people want to get help, GET HELP. It's a simple process, I don't see why it's such a hard concept to grasp.
I used to have a terrible fear of dieing a virgin. Two of my friends died at 15, way before they had an intimate relationship of any kind and it really freaked me out. It's all I could think about for the longest time and whenever a kid or someone young died in a movie that was always the first thing that popped in my head. To me, sex is like the physical manifestation of love, the literal act of love, so to me, if I died a virgin, I died without experiencing love. That would suck.
I also have a large fear of older men. I don't know why, they just generally creep me out to some degree. Few were exceptions, I was afraid of my uncles, my friend's fahters, my sister's boyfriends, it was weird. I was never molested or anything like that, but I guess because I know how guys are and I know they never change, I know at least some of them are thinking something they shouldn't. I don't exactly hold men in the highest regard. It's not that I don't like them or I think little of them, there are some really top notch, classy, smart guys. But men are men.